Walk down sickly lane...

Wed. Nov. 5th 08

"I don’t know if this is my way of having to go out with a BIG bang, but I am just so miserably SICKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE this! I can hardly spend any time with the kids. I feel an almost constant need to throw up, and this is nearly ALL the time! I have maybe one hour through out the day where I feel okay. But that’s about it!!! I feel so bad because I never smile, and I fear my poor kids must hate this! I hope it goes by fast! I keep reminding myself of the miracle that will come from this. That helps. 6-8 weeks seems so far away at this point though. I just hope and pray it goes by fast. I honestly think this has to be a boy. So similar to past “boy” pregnancies!!!!"

"P.S Obama got elected as President. I’m scared…."

My boys found an old desktop computer that I thought was no good anymore. When we couldn't get it to work several years back I was devastated because lots of photo's were lost, along with my journal entries from when I carried Scarlett. When the boys rebooted it yesterday and got it to work I was so excited, you have no idea.

Above is a journal entry that made me so happy I am done having children, but at the same time, reminded me that the pain required to have them is truly worth it.

P.S I am still scared of Obama...

Ice queen...

Snow and ice has been our lives for the past week. The ice was so bad that more than half of our town was without power. Not for a few hours...more like a few days. We were very lucky and never lost power, but we did lose a few tree limbs from the weight of the ice.

Today more snow began to fall pretty heavy as I drove the little girls to the store. Grace was looking out the car window when I heard her say to herself "Thank you Jesus for the snow, but we don't want anymore." My thoughts exactly. :)

Let's Play Dog...

Whoever said preteens were difficult to have around?? Austin is a heaven sent when it comes to his little sisters. He will play with them in our playroom all the time. Their favorite is "animal" where they are the animal's and he is their master. He doesn't always want to play these games, but he'll do it anyway, because he knows how much fun the girls have with him. He'll make an amazing dad one day.

Home...

You know what I miss? Georgia. Home. Yes, I moved away when I was 16 and I went with a fight too. Georgia was all I knew. I was born and raised in this wonderful state. All knew were tornadoes in Spring. Cornbread dressing. Fried green tomatoes. Lightening bugs. Scary humidity. Friends and strangers (myself included) saying "Ya'll."

I haven't been back to this dear place since I was 17. I had a splendid childhood. I cherish my memories. Nothing spectacular happened, but I could always count on consistency. Life was solid, and predictable. Something I consider a wonderful gift.

If I could go back for just a few days and forget the stress of being an adult, I would do it in a minute.

Even if it's just for a little while, I will one day make my way back to that beautiful place that has my heart.

Stand up...

I know I could have got these up a lot sooner but I have found I have to do things on my own time, and not fight disorganization. My head is in a happier place this way.

These are a few pics from the school Christmas program. I didn't take them. They were sent to me from a teacher, and they warmed my heart.

I love that my kids are in a place where worshiping heavenly father and Jesus Christ are not condemened, but welcomed.

I'm thankful they don't have to call it a "Holiday Program." They can say "Christmas Program." With that said...I am so impressed with kids that go to public school too. Kids that stand up for what they believe despite what they aren't encouraged to say.

The world is crazier than when I was a teenager. It's only going to get worse. I think there are some pretty awesome kids in this world that are proving that they can take on the challenge.

Working together...

It is time for the Pinewood Derby once again. It comes around so fast every year, and because we had three boys in a row, we are going to be doing it for a lot longer. It helps to have lots of kids because Chris put all the kids (and I mean all of them) to work getting the car ready. Scarlett made me laugh so hard with her work glasses. She was determined to sand that car and make it amazing. You know what they say? "A family that builds Pinewood Derby cars together...stays together." Okay, so they don't say that exactly, but close enough.

Hats...

You know you have a lot of boys when you walk into your laundry room and there's a million ball caps hanging on the hooks. I have walked pass these hats a gazillion times, and haven't thought twice about them, other than them being in the way and falling off the hooks and me having to pick them up. But today I thought about how the boys, one day soon... will tower over me.

I find it funny that I had 4 sisters and one lone brother. Before I got married I knew very little about boys. And yet am raising three of them. I can honestly say that I know without a doubt that they love me. I am their world. One day this will change. Someone else will fill that role. So until then, I will enjoy their loudness and wrestling (oh that darned wrestling) and one day miss them breaking every shred of furniture I have ever owned.